Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Summer nights



Those summer nights when I toss and turn in the bed
I snuggle under a blanket even when its warm
To get the comfort of a company

Its those dark hours that remind me of death and pain
I murmur those prayers my grandma taught me
It’s during those sleepless nights that I really think

My days are filled with books, movies, family & friends
That alone times that I converse with myself are getting scarce
There are days when I hardly talk to myself

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Holidays ahead ..........!


......Its a long time...well not so long(just 3 months) since i blogged...Some may have noticed that I deleted the earlier post I wrote "declaring" about the study preparations I am going to make for my final year exams..I deleted it b’coz my plan failed :( …..I was not well during some time in the study leave period…& I took it as a sign of universe  telling me “you are not supposed to work hard… :P”…I got terribly lazy after I got well…anyway I made sincere efforts to study about one week before the exams…."I think" I did enough to get decent marks…:) I started “facebooking” again...Its some “psycho defect” in me…periods of withdrawal and activity in internet..I start facebook…delete it.. start it…go into dormant state …etc .etc..

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Alive

Living today, as though
Going to die tomorrow
That is the passion I have for living
To the fullest I want to feel the gift of life

Honoured to have been blessed
Encircled by family and friends
Protected by the prayers they say
To love and being loved

Emotions that crowd and fade like
Clouds in the sky
Suspecting a comedy and tragedy
Behind the next turn of life

Wish to live a long life
No age is too old to live with
If the reason ‘alive’ is good enough
Alive with sounds ,sights ,smell and sensations

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Granny stories

My grandma was a good story teller. She used to tell stories everyday when I was little. When she ran out of stories she began to read stories from children’s magazine .I used to lie on her lap and listen to all so carefully. I think I don’t even concentrate on my classroom lectures that well. But with grandma my 100% attention was there. I loved Ramayana story so it was usual that everyday she began to tell the story from the beginning. I wanted to hear each and every detail, if she missed any I will make a big fuss about it and make her tell it again. I was a persistent little rascal back then
      Another category of granny stories was the real – life stories she told. Some are too personnel in the sense that the characters are still living and I don’t want to intrude into their privacy. But some others I can share. So here is one…….
When my grandma was little that is about 1930s that is ,when our land was still under kingship and colonialism.  She really adored a foreign lady named Missy. She was from Britain and she lived just half a kilometer from her house. She told me with wonder about the Persian cat that Missy owned.
Missy married a foreigner here. He came to tutor the Prince. They both worked at the palace, Missy was in charge of the tapestry decorations & carpets (palace was about 3 km away from our house) .They met and fell in love. But tragically her husband fell in the bathroom and died. Missy stayed here even after her husband’s death as a widow. She used to play a piano on some evenings. She was a very generous lady. My grandma & her little brother when they were small kids, used to visit her at Christmas time. She gave them cakes & would ask them to choose a gift that was hanging on the Christmas tree. The gifts were usually small toys and chocolates from England. But after 1947, that is the time of India’s independence Missy left Kerala. She went back to her homeland. My grandma really grew fond of the foreigners and she missed them when they left.
           I know it is not a story, but more of like a chapter from my grandma’s childhood. She used to tell this story when I asked her about the big beautiful bungalow a little away from our house. That is the bungalow where once lived a kind lady called Missy. About 60 years have passed from the day Missy left, now that bungalow is a laboratory & residence of a local doctor. 

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Went for a one day trip :)

Krishnapuram palace
Krishnapuram palace

Krishnapuram palace

Varkala beach
Varkala beach

Varkala beach

Varkala beach

Panmana asramam



Shivagiri ,Varkala

P.S. All mobile cam pictures :)
 

Friday, November 5, 2010

Freedom to hate

About 10 % my classmates in my college are either married or engaged .Some of the conservative families thinks the appropriate age for marrying off a girl is 19 years. Marrying young has both advantages and disadvantages. It takes a lot of adjusting & patience to live with someone you just barely know. There are tales of fights & tears that I see in the eyes of my married friends. One goes like this

Freedom to hate

 She acts deaf and dumb
When the world around her is of unspeakable things
“Coward”, the brave mocks her
The brave, that doesn’t have the guts to offer a helping hand

She lives on to see a brighter tomorrow
Even though her days get dim & dull
Too afraid to give up on hopes
Hopes that area possibility in a distant future
A future free from the bonds of love and fear
A future where she is not compelled to love
With a freedom to hate

Freedom to hate those who
Give her nightmares
Freedom to hate those who
Bruises her pale hands

Free from the obligation to love
In the name of marriage and blood-relation
Freedom to hate anyone she wishes
Without the bonds of ethics

Monday, October 25, 2010

Love & Deafness

We never learn from mistakes…well at least some don’t. There are a few I know, who are such dumbbells that they have promised themselves that they will act crazy and destroy their life at its ripest time. Of course I mean the girls that are of my age group…my colleagues in college. They are young, beautiful & bubbling with life &….some foolishly presumes they will be like that forever. They say they are in love, & they want to talk to their soul mate all day long.
          Whatever the friends do to warn them of the disasters won’t work. They are just bitten by the love bug & at the end of story they will be left heart broken. At that time I just want to shout to them I told you so, but I haven’ done that yet. Sure there are some love stories that are genuine. But nowadays the society is so rotten & from most of the cases I know about my friends love is just a game for them….a pass time…a peer pressure thing. I had a friend who was so in love and finally it ended badly for the girl , the boy & the family. She has stopped her studies, & she is not even allowed to call her friends. Some people who are living close to her home told me once that she is so changed. She rarely speaks anything, always being rude to people who show kindness and to sum it up she has shut herself up in a miserable world of her own.
            One thing I know for sure, college life is not just for enjoyment. Its the hard-work during this time that determines the rest of our life or career path (in my case its so) . So the safe thing to do is to stay away from all stupidities, including falling in love.I really hope that my friends who are so in love with "some person on the other end of mobile phone" will throw the stupid thing away & start working for their exams........God I am really in a bad mood now..... :( ...I wonder why that love-bitten friends never listen to me?....I think love also makes them deaf or immune to good advices....