Way forward

Biting my lips

Have a gratifying effect of holding back tears

Because tears give away the uncomfy fancy

That I am such a girly girl

I am in a tug of war

To become a respectable woman

Throwing all kind of tantrums

On the way forward

Choosing pastels over pinks

Giving up on skirts & frocks

Tying my hair instead of leaving it

For the whims of wind

Letting go of cheap romance comedies

And committing to the classy doomed love stories

Realizing that there is no fairy-tales in life

Only a sprinkle of joy here and there

Only the goal matters,why should it matter

Whether I win by fair or foul means?

The fear that someone is keeping check on my actions

Is encouragement for sticking to the fair ways........

Choice

What good does choice have

When I have nothing to choose from

Choices were made for me

Dusted & faded among them, my lost dreams

What dreams? I barely recollect

After a night’s sleep

When I forsake the most precious dreams

I didn’t abandon them by choice

It’s just that, I can’t remember them

Sometimes I hear my heart beats

Among those midnight sighs

Straining my ears to pick

Some celestial sounds

Why would God talk to me

When I can’t even understand

The speech of my fellow beings

That is my fear…that I will never understand language!

I am back :)

I have missed writing so much.........I have been in hiding, don't misunderstand...just scared that I had a stalker. I was stupid enough to give my name on the blog & anyone who entered my name into google would get right to this blog...Actually it is no big deal..But there is a small possibility of me being "known" (maybe as a civil servant or as teacher) in the future, so I would like to remain unknown in this blog...CRAZY ?....I know..:)..The freedom 'anonymous' title gives is enviable...;) ...I can write whatever I want, without being prejudiced, egoistic, dishonest & blah blah.......:).......
So during this time I have been away from blog, this all things happened
1) Got a university y rank ...yipppppppeeeeee :D
2) Joined for post graduation...*sigh * I am not loving hard work :(......but still will manage : )
3) Studied a little paper crafts & origami stuff
4) Got addicted to watching supernatural TV series...I know the story is not so great ,but still all the 'sweet' sibling relations, leave me aching for a sibling
                  Still many things happened, well that is for another 'day' to write........................